Through My Eyes: A Journal

By Liz Root

Contact Liz by emailing her at liz@vagrantcafe.com

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6/1/2002
some days, you just wake up in a bad mood. bleh.


- liz r. - 6/1/2002

5/28/2002
well...hopefully by the end of the week i'll have a job. who knows where, but i'd really love to have one. and i hope they're okay with me going to cornerstone festival. i'll just have to tell them that it's already set in stone and that the tickets are paid for already or something. basically, it's the most important thing to me right now. actually...i'll just say that i've already got a committment to be in illinois. i shouldn't worry about it. if i'm meant to have this job then they'll be okay with letting me off for cornerstone, right?

since being back i feel much more relaxed. it almost feels like i just moved here all over again. it just feels good. kind of difficult to explain. i'll be babysitting this afternoon, which will be good b/c i'm growing to really love kids, and also the extra money will be nice.

i've been reading annie dillard's Pilgrim at Tinker Creek again, and i hope to be half as good as she is at writing before i die. this woman is truly gifted with words. i wonder if there's any effective way to expand my vocabulary. i know reading helps, but if there isn't anyone to practice the vocabulary on then how am i going to get used to it? maybe i'll start reading Reader's Digest and memorizing their vocabulary words.

okay, back to the job thing. for those of you who pray and wouldn't mind praying for me...pray that i get this job. thanks.


- liz r. - 5/28/2002

5/27/2002
well i'm back in south carolina. of course it's going to get to almost 90 degrees today. go figure. it's definitely good to be back. it feels like i've been gone a month, though. readjusting is kind of weird. i definitely had a great time at home. some people i'd like to mention: jill, jenni, kelly...it was good having the four of us hang out again. props to jill for buying my plane ticket. i really miss these girls more than you know. why can't we all live in france or something where it only takes a few hours to get to the other side of the country? oh well. also: many thanks to jason for our two steak and beer nights. those were some good times. it's a shame everyone can't see his famous dance. joel and carole: it was great hanging out with "the kids." even if carole is accident prone. alyssa: it was good to see her if only for a few hours. you have no idea how much i miss this girl. also: it was good hanging out with george again, as well as getting to meet the famous david. i'm telling you...people who live in lincoln are often much nicer and cooler than omaha kids. my personal opinion of course.

so i need to get a job. just a couple of months. i'm going to get off my arse this afternoon and go job hunting. sounds so appealing doesn't it? at least i've got a dinner to go to tonight and it's catered. yum.

also, being back here i think is kicking me back into some kind of spiritual mode again. okay...that was a really horrible way of wording it. basically...i've been pretty lazy for awhile and went through a lot of emotional spiritual mental stuff right before i went to nebraska for two weeks, and now that i'm back i think i'm ready to move forward. yeah...that's a much better way of saying it. yesterday at church we had a guest speaker from the UK, who spoke simply about trusting the Lord and not in people. it was such a simple message, he didn't hype it up or make it something it wasn't, and i think for the first time i began to understand what trusting the Lord really is, which is probably the biggest thing i struggle with in life. it takes the pressure off myself when i realize that i don't have to be in control of every aspect of my life, and that in most areas, i have a lot less control than i think i have anyway. and in a weird way, it made me think of relationship stuff. it made me think about how when i get lonely, i tend to settle and not trust the Lord with whoever I end up dating. and by "settling" i don't mean that the guy has to be rich and successful and seemingly perfect. all that really needs to be there is a desire to walk with God and get to know Him better and that he's consistently growing closer to the Lord. someone whose relationship with the Lord isn't just a part of his life, but the force that directs his life and affects all aspects of it.

anyway...it's good to be back.


- liz r. - 5/27/2002